So many of you open your hearts and share with me…and I want to say thank you so much for that. Allowing yourself to be that vulnerable is scary as heck. I always say that I would never ask anything of you that I wouldn’t do so myself, so here’s my open and vulnerable heart sharing another one of my very human experiences with you.
Yesterday, I launched my second book, “The Little Book of Bigger Insights”. It’s taken me two years to actually complete. Now don’t get me wrong, the content wasn’t difficult for me to write. Like my first book, “The Little Book of Big Insights”, it’s a compilation of my favorite channeled messages from the angels along with some tools from me. However, I did everything I could delay the book. David, my partner a/k/a Bohemian Soulmate, does all the formatting and graphics for me…so whenever that was required, I made sure to give it to him when he was working with at least three clients who were all building new websites and launching them at the same time. Then my excuse for not doing what was required of me to get the book done and ready for publishing was, “Oh, David is way too busy with paying clients to get my stuff so I’ll just wait”. Now, for the record, sometimes that was true, most of the time…it wasn’t. Whenever possible, he finds ways to make time for my stuff.
Here we are today, more than one year later than I wanted to launch and I chose to very quietly release the book. That’s not to say I’m not posting it on Facebook, and yes, I will post the link here too…but I didn’t get partners and host a big launch like I did with the first one….even though I do have to admit, having a bestselling book credited to my name is pretty freaking cool.
So, this is the way things went. I posted “The Little Book of Bigger Insights” on both my personal and business Facebook pages with an announcement about how excited I was to be able to share this accomplishment with everyone. Something was tweaking me about it, but I didn’t quite realize it until I posted it in a Facebook group I belong to. That’s when it all slammed me in the face…or really, my heart.
When I published my first book I couldn’t wait to tell my family. What I received was a “that’s nice, Robin”. After the official launch, my father told me that he didn’t buy it because Amazon was charging too much for shipping. Now, while I know that the statement wasn’t meant the way it sounded, it hurt…it really hurt. To be honest, I felt a little girl who showed her daddy her latest work of art and he fluffed it off. Amazing what kinds of games we play with ourselves, isn’t it?
When I showed the physical copies to my family, again I got a bunch of “that’s nice”….and no one was interested in actually having a copy of their own. Imagine how strange that is. I had and still have strangers who ask me to autograph their books for them and not one single person in my family has a copy of my book. As I was thinking about it tonight, the thought that was floating around my brain was if one of my kids published a book, it would be sitting on the coffee table for everyone to see. And then I remembered, that’s me. That’s not how my family operates. The hurt I feel is because I’m expecting my family to be like me instead of who they are. And you know what? My family doesn’t believe in angels…so why in the world would I have had other expectations. I’m actually grateful to them for being themselves so that I could better understand who I am.
Now, while I am not evolved enough or judgment free enough to be fully okay with my family not supporting me in the way I want to be supported, I have done a whole lot of work around it and know that this is about MY reactions…not their actions. The more I can operate from a space where I don’t judge myself or take on anyone else’s point of view, the happier and the more me I am.
Hopefully, my story will encourage you to see where you too are expecting people in your life to operate from your point of view instead operating from who they actually are. When you do, I promise, you will feel tons and tons better. You may still be a little hurt or annoyed, but it’s nothing like you would have felt had you allowed yourself to be made wrong or small by someone else’s actions.
With all that said, I present to you, my latest book, “The Little Book of Bigger Insights”. I appreciate the contribution you make to my life and to the world and I thank you from the bottom of my heart for receiving me.
Much love and abundant blessings,
