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The Daily Clearing

The Clearing You Didn’t KnowYou Needed

This  3:42 clearing covers everything you need to get things running smoothly so you can get back to what you do best.

Where Did I Go Wrong?

Last night I had a bit of a meltdown.  It wasn’t full fledged, but it was one of those cases that made me feel completely inadequate.  My youngest son is 17 going on 18 and, like all teenagers, believes he knows everything there is to know about everything.  He’s also not making the best choices for his life and has no sense of responsibility.  In his mind, he does nothing wrong and when things do wrong it’s not his fault.  It’s me, his dad, the teacher, unfair practices, and so on.

Here’s the thing, in my work I teach that we are responsible for our lives and our actions….as a parent, I teach my kids that we are responsible for our lives and our actions.  As I watch my son completely deny these teachings, it results in me to wondering where I went wrong as a teacher and a parent.  It also creates a situation that allows me to view the past as the person I am now.

What I saw was that I wanted to be “normal” and I thought that having a second kid would help me to be normal.  My oldest has autism and life was never “normal” with him.  Plus, as a kid my life was never “normal” either.  I was an overweight child, with curly frizzy hair, and glasses.  I didn’t look like everyone else and because I was shy, I didn’t act like everyone else.  So, the possibility of having a child who was “normal” drew me like a bee to a flower.

Of course, life didn’t turn out the way I expected.  I never experienced that sense of normalcy I craved and I felt terribly guilty for subjecting my youngest child to this life.  He didn’t have it easy because of the demands that were associated with raising his brother.  We went through some really rocky times.

I realized that I was completely ill-equipped to be a parent to these two boys and felt horribly guilty about that.   Simultaneously, I was able to remember that my boys chose their dad and I as their parents, and that even though I didn’t do a great job as a mom, I actually did do the best I could based on who I was mentally, emotionally, and spiritually.  I was also reminded that as the kids got older and I got smarter and more emotionally and spiritually balanced, I offered both of my kids the opportunity to see the world differently.  My youngest shunned it completely and my oldest is trying it out in his own way.

I woke up this morning having completely forgotten about last night until I was reading a book that talked about our shadow sides.  The part of us that has the unconscious need  for suffering.  This is part of us that feeds the feelings of guilt, failure, fear, and self-pity.  This is also the side of us that secretly revels in payoffs like anger, resent, fear, etc.

Here’s my point….I felt like a complete failure last night and I could have easily made the choice to hold onto feeling like crap.  I could have indulged in hours and hours of self pity….but for what purpose?  Was I willing to settle for feeling like crap?  Did I want to revel in my guilt or, did I want to learn from the past events?

I chose to learn.  First, I allowed myself to feel and experience the full brunt of my emotions without judging the emotions themselves.  I took a few minutes to do some work on my unconscious belief systems and I prayed for grace.

I still wish my son would make better choices.  I still wish I could have been a better influence on him.  I still wish that I knew how to be a better parent to him….but I’m done beating myself up and I don’t feel guilty about it anymore.

That’s what clearing subconscious limiting beliefs does for you.  It takes the things that have a strong emotional charge attached to them and puts them in neutral.  This allows you to see how they have helped and hindered you as well to learn what it was you needed to learn from them.

It’s from this space that you can up level your life experience.  You’re able to continually grow mentally, spiritually, and emotionally with less and less suffering attached.  You are able to have more of what you want in your life without feeling like you have to be worthy of having it…or feeling like there’s something wrong with you if you don’t have it yet.

This is the core of the Divine Opulence Program.  To help you clear your limiting beliefs and get you on solid ground so you can actually have more of what you want out of life.  This self-study program will be released on Monday, January 26th and will help you to:

  •  learn how to start asking for more without feeling guilty or like you don’t deserve to have something better.
  •  leave behind belief systems that keep you attached to poverty consciousness and lack mentality.
  • discover the truth about just how abundant the Universe actually is and how you can tap into it with ease.
  •  discover the keys to accepting Divine Timing with ease.
  •  get aligned and in resonance with being able to actually receive what you are asking for.

Are you ready to stop feeling wrong about your life and your choices?

Remember, you are not your story and you are not your emotions.  You are a human being who is Divine at the Core….

Much love and abundant blessings,

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