I just wanted to check in with you and let you know that I won’t be sending out an August Monthly Blessings E-zine. It’s been another whirlwind month and we’re in the process of moving…packing day is July 31, lease signing/moving day is August 1…and I’m still doing sessions and running classes in between. Thank goodness for prayer, meditation, the Angels, and David (my partner).
I learned a lot of lessons while waiting to see if we were going to get approved for our new place and they seriously hit each and every one of my core fear based buttons…and in doing so, increased my Faith and Gratitude. In the end, I finally fully integrated the facts that no matter how bad things have gotten, I have always had a safe place to live and always had food in the cupboards.
Where have you been feeling scared and unsafe but have actually been safe and protected in your life?
Purging, Cleaning, Packing…With each item I choose to keep and each item I choose to let go of, I get a clearer picture of who I am in these 10 seconds.
If you follow me on my public Facebook page, it sounds like I have a ton of stuff, but the real work is in separating what is mine from what came with and belongs with the house. I am noticing that I really do live what I teach. Even in a larger space, I don’t have as many possessions as I used to. I no longer use “stuff” to fill an emotional void. I am holding onto just a few keepsakes…although, I am a Leo, so there are still probably more shoes, clothes, jewelry and handbags than necessary. LOL
Everything else (that is specifically mine) is either related to my spiritual practice or work. I’d hate to lose them, but I also know that if they were gone, my connection and faith would not be. I gave away a bunch of books and whole lot of crystals…some people thought I was nuts, but I don’t own these things. I’m their guardian and when it’s time for them to leave, I say my goodbye’s and let them go.
Lots of thought as well as intuition is being given to the rest of the stuff…dishes, silverware, pots, pans, TVs, furniture, Etc. Is it functional? Is it something we use? Does it make our lives easier? Is there space for it in our new home? Does it work for us? Does it feel light and expansive, or heavy and constrictive? Do we actually like and enjoy it? And if it’s a necessity that we are not crazy about, would we rather spend the money on a new one or keep this one for now? By combining the practical and intuitive aspects here, we are better able to make choices that support and expand us and our lives instead of inhibit and constrict it.
I’m leaving the home that I lived in with my parents, brother, and grandparents for the second time. The first time was to get married and start a new chapter in my life. This time, it’s with the understanding that I am the last woman in this branch of my lineage. It’s time to let Nana’s spaghetti pot go, it’s time to let the house that my mother loved go. It’s time for me to close the doors to the past and let my ancestors finally Rest In Peace. One small part of me is still carrying a little guilt…wondering if it was wrong of me to wish for sons instead of daughters, and the other part of me knows that this particular journey was written before I had a human body.
These thoughts are just some of what is going through my head during this process. Packing and moving can be stressful and scary, but it can be healing and loving if you let it. I’m choosing to let it heal some of my deeper wounds that still like to twinge just below the surface every once in a while to remind me that I am a human being…not just a teacher and healer.
Here’s to honoring the past with all its gifts and lessons while letting it all go at the same time. My wish for you is that each time you placed in a position where you are being asked to let go, you can do so with ease and understanding.
Much love and abundant blessings,
Robin
